life is lifey.

everything changes in half an hour?

My lease was emailed to me. The security deposit was lowered. My grandma just handed me a check for $400. My dad just told me if he files the right paperwork, I won't have to pay tuition anymore.

I can't stop crying.

So much for happy

I was feeling on top of the world all this week until yesterday.

Things were better with Jason, I had a plan for everything, and the house was falling into place.

Now they tell me the deposit is due on Tuesday.

My financial aid doesn't come out until the 14th.

I don't know what to do.

That's $400 that none of my semi-close family has.

I want to say that's why I felt like shit last night, but honestly I don't think so. I mean I know the stress is coming from that, but not the sad.

Where? Why? I was doing fine, and all of the sudden whabam. Courtney wants to crawl in a hole and never again see the light of day.

I'm tired of the mood swings. And the feeling like shit physically. I'm just tired.