Zzyzx Road

I don't know how else to put this.
It's taking me so long to do this.
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight.

My muscles feel like a melee,
My body's curled in a U-shape.
I put on my best, but I'm still afraid.

Propped up by lies and promises.
Saving my place as life forgets.
Maybe it's time I saw the world.

I'm only here for a while.
And patience is not my style,
And I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?

Tell me I should stick around for you.
Tell me I can have it all.
I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.

I get to go home in one week.
But I'm leaving home in three weeks.
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry.

I'm following suit and directions.
I crawl up inside for protection.
I'm told what to do and I don't know why.

I'm over-existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family.
I'm ready to die in obscurity
Cause I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
You still don't think I'm gonna see this through.

Tell me I'm a part of history.
Tell me I can have it all.
I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.



Well fuck. Why am I just now hearing this song?
I don't think I've ever had a song so clearly express what I was feeling. Ever.
I was in a sort of shock the first time I heard this, and now I'm sitting here on my living room couch with it on repeat and trying to not cry.

"I'm ready to live with my family.
I'm ready to die in obscurity
Cause I'm so tired that I got to go."

Fuck a duck. I need to go have a life crisis on the swings, but don't have anyone to go with.

I need to go down to the desert this summer. I think I'll take a week right before school starts, and go visit my family in 29 Palms. And have someone drive me out to Zzyzx Road. I heard about it ages ago, and almost forgot about it.