i really am no good at this.

a month has gone by, and oh how the world has changed.

Taj and I had a very long conversation on the 4th of July. I didn't realize it at the time, but looking back, it was him telling me that he couldn't do it, that he couldn't be in a relationship with me just then. And thinking about it, that's okay. I learned a few things about people and about myself, and had some fun while I was at it.

I haven't heard from him since, and I'm okay with that.

Since the week before my birthday, I've been spending a lot of time with Arron. A lot being quite a bit. Being seeing him almost every day.
According to him, I kissed him at either mine or Brown's birthday party, while we were dancing. I have no recollection of this, though I wish to god that I did.

July 13th, he went to karaoke at the bar with us. We had a few drinks, we sang, we danced, and just before we left, he kissed me.
We kissed each other the whole way back to the car, giggling and smiling throughout.
We went back to my house and kissed some more. He stayed the night, and when we woke up, I made breakfast, and we kissed some more.

It's been more of the same for the last three weeks.

I was afraid for a while that he didn't actually like me, or that he wouldn't let himself like me, anyway. We've had a few serious conversations (admittedly, always sparked by alcohol), and I think he finally is getting used to the idea that I'm not going to get bored or scared away.

Lauren and Garrett found two beautiful blonde golden retrievers. Arron adopted them, and they spent almost a week at my house (because it was more convenient while his roommate was out of town). They went home Monday night, and I cleaned the house yesterday to get rid of all of their fur.

Betty is fixed ($600 later) but still needs to be smog'd and registered. I'm hopefully going home this weekend, with a Victoria in tow. :)

I'm happier than I have been since I can remember. I'm spending time with people I love, working, and enjoying everything I can.

The world feels right.